Hello 🙂 to be honest I’m not sure what happened. I had a wonderful life, great friends, a loving family, great school grades and I was also part of the schools drama production and I really loved it so much. Then one day during rehearsal I was talking about something to my friends and this I saw this boy watching me. When I looked at him he peered over from the wall and said ‘hello’. He started talking to me and was teasing my about my hieght and treated me like a little kid, which annoyed me and I was very reluctant towards him. (We will call him c)he was a little older than me, about two years. Since that day he came up to me every day at school teasing me and stuff. Eventually we became friends. I always got annoyed at him still but I still did like him. Also around that time a met a girl who was also in the drama group (we will call her m). She was in my maths class and we sat next to each other, but we never even spoke. I thought this would be a good chance to get to know her, so I began to talk to her. I have never laughed so much with anyone 😀 She made me laugh so much. So we ended up being friends. One day, I introduced m to c. They seemed to get along really well so I was happy. We were very good friends, getting on to be close. One day after school my parents sat me and brother down to have a serious talk. They told us my dad would be moving away and they were getting divorced. I was deverstated. I knew other kids had gone through it, but I never thought it would happen to me. I didn’t tell my friends about my parents for 4 months, when I eventually told them they went quiet and didn’t say anything. I didn’t see my dad at all during the 4 months. When I told m, she was really supportive, more than my other friends. It had also turned out that c’s parents had split up around the same time as me, and when I tried to support him, he got really angry and we starred arguing. We fought every day, he sent me horrible things on fb and I sent horrible things to him on fb. One day, m told me that she and c had started dating, as he had asked her out. It really upset me, but to I wasn’t at all sure why. As time went on, my other friends started leaving me out, spreading my secrets around, marketing sure that they got to school earlier so I couldn’t walk with them. To make matters worse, I started getting bullied by kids in my year and c’s friends. They would trip me up and call me names, but I refused to show them that it hurt me. Eventually I got a call from c, telling me he was sorry and we should start again. I forgave him and we moved on. But he had changed, and I still loved him as a friend but… It just wasn’t the same. It was weird though, everytime I’m near him my heart beats so fast and I really blush. Im not the sort of person who shows there emotions and will never cry infront of anyone. When I asked some people they told me i loved him. Im so confused…c is m’s boyfriend though….what should i do? My school work is now starting to go down, it’s bad as we are starting our GSCE’s soon. I still have m, but no other friends, my parents hate each other and I never see my dad, and I will deny I’m in love tills the ends of the earth. I always tell myself there’s people worse of than me and that I’m lucky, and put on a brave face. But I feel so low. So my question is what do you think I should do? (Sorry it’s a big question) and do you guys think I love c? It’s like that song from the Disney movie Hercules, I won’t say I’m in love :3 I think understanding my feelings will help me out a bit more. Thankyouuuuu so much if you’ve read to the end of my emotional speech of longness. thankyou again for all help 🙂