BACKSTORY: I have a friend of mine who I never see. She’s 3 years older (17) than me (14), and goes to a different school- we got in touch via facebook, as she is in this theatre program I want to be in, and I wanted to know more about the program. I met her once (at a performance), before telling her everything I’ve been through-bullying, sexual abuse, going to the psych ward, a divorce with my parents, and much more. I didn’t get into that school that I messaged her about- and ever since then, she’s been blowing me off. I met her once again in April at a performance for the program I wanted to go to. We talked a little bit afterwards, I gave her some sweets, and we hugged a few times. I love her to death, she’s just so amazing- she has never once judged me, and she really understands me, but we haven’t talked lately, and I really miss that. I hug my pillow at night, wishing it was her. She has inspired me, and for the first time, I feel loved. I look up to her as a sister, but I have no clue how she looks at me.
ANYWAYS.
I had a weird dream about her the other night. I had been at the supermarket, buying things, and I saw a man. I took a good look at him for some reason, and then left. I went home, and went to my backyard to tell my family I’m home. My Mom wasn’t home, but my brothers were- and then I looked at our seat swing. I see that she’s sitting in the seat swing, and I feel my heart drop. We immediately ran up to each other, and hugged. We let go, but then we went back in and hugged again. After that, we both said “I love you.” at the same time. We hung out around my house, and then played on the piano. After some time, the dude from the supermarket showed up at my house, and told my friend he was ready for his piano lesson. She gave him a piano lesson in my house, on my piano. I couldn’t understand why she was giving a lesson at my house of all places, but I went along with it. I just sat around in the same room, on my laptop the entire time. When the lesson was over, the dude left. She left about 5 minutes later. Before she left, she told me that she wanted us to hang out again. She gave me a hug and then left. I woke up after that.
I miss her deeply, our conversations over text, and her liking all my statuses and photos on facebook. But most importantly, I miss being her friend. I even cry over it sometimes, and I just wish with all my heart that I had gotten into that program so we could’ve hung out. There is a girl that gotten in who I met at my audition (she was super mean to me), and now she and my friend are hanging out 24/7 always liking all each other’s statuses on facebook, always commenting on each other’s pictures, etc…..It annoys me, because in a way, I feel like I’ve been replaced. I never received much love as a child, so when I talked to her, I finally felt like I was loved- which was honestly super amazing for me. I feel like in a way, she doesn’t love me anymore.
I don’t understand at all what this dream means. I know that in dreams, backyard means: To dream about your backyard represents your childhood memories or your subconscious. Alternatively, dreaming of your backyard refers to the secrets you are keeping. There are some aspects of your life which you want to keep hidden and out of the view of others. The dream also represents some aspect of your life that you have taken for granted. The condition of the yard is also symbolic of how well you maintain and balance aspects of your life.
I also know the supermarket is: To dream that you are in a market represents some emotional or physical need that you are currently lacking in your life. You may be in need of nurturance and some fulfillment. Consider the specific items that you are shopping for. Alternatively, the market signifies frugality.
Also, piano means: To dream that you are playing a piano indicates a quest for harmony in your life. Consider where the piano is placed as a clue as to what aspect of your life needs accordance. If no sound is coming out of the piano, then it implies a lack of confidence. You are not sure about how to express yourself and how to voice your beliefs.
Could someone PLEASE help me put together what this dream means? I’ve tried, but I honestly think this dream was just telling me that I truly long to see her and feel her friendship again (which is true, and I’ve known that since the moment I didn’t get into the program)
Even if you can’t piece it together, could you please just tell me some of your ideas? I really need help on this one and I feel like it really means something. I am forever grateful for any help I can receive. Thank you in advance, and have a nice day/afternoon/night.