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I started swimming about 4 years ago for a local YMCA team. Not very competitive, but I swam for about a year. I decided I didn’t like competing and quit.
Two years later, in 7th grade, I joined a water polo team. It was really fun, and I considered going back to swim team too. I haven’t gone back to water polo since I changed schools and haven’t been able to find a good team yet– but that’s a whole other story.
Ahemmmm… Anyways, in July 2011, I went back to swim team, this time on a more advanced, competitive swim team. However, I only actually participated in one real meet. I only joined to get in my PE credit. In April of 2012, I quit yet again.
In August 2012, I rejoined, because I really didn’t want to do volleyball, and I had to get in PE time somehow. Now it’s January 2013 and I really want to quit swim team for good once I get in the necessary PE hours. I’m thinking I’d quit in April or May.
See, here’s the thing. I know the story I’ve told above makes me out to be a quitter– Usually, I’m not. I’ve never quit on academics, or music, or anything. However, I’m really NOT an athletic person, and I’ve struggled to find my niche there. I thought I had finally found a talent in swimming (I’m fairly good) but I just keep going back and forth and I need closure.
The thing is, I love the reward you get for being a great swimmer, but I’m not so sure I’m willing to put in the time and commitment it demands. I’m more worried about just keeping healthy than anything else.
I know I need to stick it out at least until April. But… Should I quit? I took a break during December, and I really enjoyed not being on the team. Whenever it’s time for swim team, I get cranky and I wish that I would get sick or break my leg on accident– anything to get out of swim team. Honestly, I can’t remember myself ever TRULY loving swim team. But I feel like my parents would be disappointed in me for quitting. I already had a small talk about it with my mom and she’s been trying to keep me from quitting. She really wants me to swim since she was on a high school swim team a long time ago but has ear problems and can’t swim now. She wants me to swim since she couldn’t. I’m really not sure what she’s thinking and I have no idea what the outcome will be if I do quit.
What should I do?

I am a high-school junior and am afraid of failing everything I attempt, such as failing to discover my social niche in society, failing to develop meaningful relationships with others, failing academics and getting accepted into college, failing to achieve happiness etc. I try not to let my fear of failing everything prevent me from participating in life’s opportunities, yet when I do participate, I feel apprehensive and uneasy and unhappy. I don’t know what I want and, therefore, don’t know what to do and how to accomplish this ‘happiness’ that I so actively seek. (I can’t achieve such happiness because I don’t know what happiness really is. What am I seeking? What am I afraid of?) I want to evade this state of apprehension and fear of failing everything. I just don’t know how to go about doing this.