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Back in April I joined a campus organization which was affiliated with Christianity and met some amazing people who taught me about the Lord and Jesus Christ who I was skeptical in the past before because I thought Christians were just a bunch of wack jobs. Time went on and my understanding of the lord grew. I was thanking him for all of the amazing people I have met, but I was still in this funk that I have been dwelling in for the past 20 years. I see all this amazing things happen to other people while I’m still left out wondering when something good will happen to me. Sure new friends come along, but everyone finds love, everyone finds happiness, while I’m still in this depression where I’m dealing with anger and hate and how I’m viewed as the weird kid who sits alone and listens to heavy metal, which is considered just nonsense and mindless notice to most people I have met. I don’t know if God is just picking the moment when something good will happen, but he has a funny sense of putting bad stuff in my way. I had to buy a new laptop to replace the old one cause the screen went out for no reason, I had to pay for a wreck which I did not cause, just the same old tired-some crap that happens every now and then, but I am so sick and fed up with it. Maybe it’s impatience, maybe it’s just that I don’t understand the Lord better, but I can’t take all of the bad stuff that happens in this world to me, and to others who are viewed differently based on appearances and tastes, there’s no need for such mindless , nonsensical mongering of social status in this world.

Back in April I met a couple people on campus who were evangelizing to people and I was one of the people that they sat down with and started to talk to me about the gospel. I was a little skeptical at first because I did and still believe that there is a higher power, a god as you may call him, and that no matter the religion we are affiliated with, we can come together as a society when we need to and overcome and challenge that comes our way. I eventually became a christian because they gave me more insight about Jesus and god and how they can be apart of their lives. Ever since then I’ve been reading bible and learning about God and how if w you follow god’s word, you will ascend into the kingdom and gain eternal life. The only problem with that is one question? When will god answer my prayers. Although I’ve made a whole bunch of new friends since then, I’m still trapped in this state of loneliness and depression. I feel that God is not walking beside me, but pushing me away like I’m a twisted monster. I’m now questioning my faith. Is god just waiting to show himself to me in the future, or will I be turned away from him just like everyone else in my life. I thought that the bible would help me, give me insight, give me meaningful words to dwell upon, but nothing. I can’t even remember scriptures, I only remember lyrics from heavy metal songs such as “give your soul to me, for eternity” and “The Halo over our demise, following a god so blind.” I need a little more insight on this issue cause I truly don’t understand Gods ways, or if i ever wanted to.