Posted on 25 April 2012. Tags: al fatiha, alarm clock, Extremist, intention, Islam, lunch time, ramadan, reading a book, Salah, sunnah, surat, tv music
Because of my view of Islam my parents think i’m becoming an extremist because I think pictures, tv ,music, certain soap is haram etc. while they’re more lenient and think many rulings were of “zaman moayan” ie. almost everything is halal as long as you have good intention/almost everything has an excuse. I love them but things are becoming difficult for me.
Okay so basically My parents won’t let me pray sunna salahs and qada salahs (from years past) (because they believe the amount of time I spend praying daily is making me fall behind in school/make me anti-social/) and I have about a week of qada (of sunnah and qada) salah to make up. I’ve been thinking of methods to make them up without my parents knowing, for instance I pray during lunch time, but I can normally only make up one salah, maybe two and when my parents are out etc. I’ve been trying to pray in bed, but sometimes I accidentily sleep + sometimes I don’t have wadu and if I make wadu after isha my parents get suspicious. I have also been setting my alarm to wake me up in the middle of the night, but my mother sometimes unplugs my alarm clock when I’m not looking. Is it okay to do “secret salah” in whatever means possible? like sitting in the car, pretending to do homework/reading a book, while in stores and super markets pretending to be in “another section” make small motions with my body and then cut salah whenever my parents talk to me? my father has ” ‘adaytny dag” several times, and one time even got out a “sikeen” when he was really mad but my mom convinced him to put it away. Is it okay for me to do it faster than usual? Read surat Al-fatiha without pausing? Isn’t it wajb? Any exceptions because of circumstances?
ps. I also want to make qada for some years I didn’t fast but after fasting 5 days in a row my parents physically force me to eat. Is my fast valid if I have intention to fast but my circumstances prevent me? So far for the past 2/3 weeks or so I have been fasting every single day and don’t eat unless my parents force me to eat
p.p.s I realise that I am making qada for sunnah, but that’s a personal decision, even if I don’t have to I want to.
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Posted on 17 February 2012. Tags: call, Farther, freshmen, lunch time, management class, Niches, older sister, Peers., Reason, reason adults, smoke, smoke weed, task management, ungodly fear, weed
I’ve never met anyone that has interests that are similar to mine and it makes it extremely hard to get along with anyone. The only thing I can do with people anymore is smoke weed because everyone loves weed at my school. Most people at my school call me weird and things like that, but for some reason, adults (except teachers because I don’t talk to teachers) love my personality and tell my mom that she raised a wonderful son. Kids are so cruel to me and I don’t know why.
I had to be in a special task management class my freshmen year because I failed most of my classes in eighth grade due to not trying. All the kids and the teachers (there were two of them for some reason) would make fun of my behavior for some reason and some kids would even try to start fights with me even though most people know that I have an ungodly fear of any contact with people. My older sister wouldn’t even stand up for me.
I have friends, but I don’t have a group of friends because my small number of friends all come from different niches at my high school. I usually end up at home after school and on the weekends. During lunch time at my school, I just roam the halls till lunch is over because I have nobody to sit with. I feel very unattached from reality. I don’t think that I’m like most people. I’m at the point where I can’t comprehend how people can go on fine day to day while I’m left questioning my existence. Everyday, I feel like I’m getting worse and moving farther away from my friends. I feel very alone in the word. Could there be a reason why I am this way?
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Posted on 17 February 2012. Tags: call, Farther, freshmen, lunch time, management class, Niches, older sister, Peers., Reason, reason adults, smoke, smoke weed, task management, ungodly fear, weed
I’ve never met anyone that has interests that are similar to mine and it makes it extremely hard to get along with anyone. The only thing I can do with people anymore is smoke weed because everyone loves weed at my school. Most people at my school call me weird and things like that, but for some reason, adults (except teachers because I don’t talk to teachers) love my personality and tell my mom that she raised a wonderful son. Kids are so cruel to me and I don’t know why.
I had to be in a special task management class my freshmen year because I failed most of my classes in eighth grade due to not trying. All the kids and the teachers (there were two of them for some reason) would make fun of my behavior for some reason and some kids would even try to start fights with me even though most people know that I have an ungodly fear of any contact with people. My older sister wouldn’t even stand up for me.
I have friends, but I don’t have a group of friends because my small number of friends all come from different niches at my high school. I usually end up at home after school and on the weekends. During lunch time at my school, I just roam the halls till lunch is over because I have nobody to sit with. I feel very unattached from reality. I don’t think that I’m like most people. I’m at the point where I can’t comprehend how people can go on fine day to day while I’m left questioning my existence. Everyday, I feel like I’m getting worse and moving farther away from my friends. I feel very alone in the word. Could there be a reason why I am this way?
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Posted on 17 February 2012. Tags: call, Farther, freshmen, lunch time, management class, Niches, older sister, Peers., Reason, reason adults, smoke, smoke weed, task management, ungodly fear, weed
I’ve never met anyone that has interests that are similar to mine and it makes it extremely hard to get along with anyone. The only thing I can do with people anymore is smoke weed because everyone loves weed at my school. Most people at my school call me weird and things like that, but for some reason, adults (except teachers because I don’t talk to teachers) love my personality and tell my mom that she raised a wonderful son. Kids are so cruel to me and I don’t know why.
I had to be in a special task management class my freshmen year because I failed most of my classes in eighth grade due to not trying. All the kids and the teachers (there were two of them for some reason) would make fun of my behavior for some reason and some kids would even try to start fights with me even though most people know that I have an ungodly fear of any contact with people. My older sister wouldn’t even stand up for me.
I have friends, but I don’t have a group of friends because my small number of friends all come from different niches at my high school. I usually end up at home after school and on the weekends. During lunch time at my school, I just roam the halls till lunch is over because I have nobody to sit with. I feel very unattached from reality. I don’t think that I’m like most people. I’m at the point where I can’t comprehend how people can go on fine day to day while I’m left questioning my existence. Everyday, I feel like I’m getting worse and moving farther away from my friends. I feel very alone in the word. Could there be a reason why I am this way?
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