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Back in April I met a couple people on campus who were evangelizing to people and I was one of the people that they sat down with and started to talk to me about the gospel. I was a little skeptical at first because I did and still believe that there is a higher power, a god as you may call him, and that no matter the religion we are affiliated with, we can come together as a society when we need to and overcome and challenge that comes our way. I eventually became a christian because they gave me more insight about Jesus and god and how they can be apart of their lives. Ever since then I’ve been reading bible and learning about God and how if w you follow god’s word, you will ascend into the kingdom and gain eternal life. The only problem with that is one question? When will god answer my prayers. Although I’ve made a whole bunch of new friends since then, I’m still trapped in this state of loneliness and depression. I feel that God is not walking beside me, but pushing me away like I’m a twisted monster. I’m now questioning my faith. Is god just waiting to show himself to me in the future, or will I be turned away from him just like everyone else in my life. I thought that the bible would help me, give me insight, give me meaningful words to dwell upon, but nothing. I can’t even remember scriptures, I only remember lyrics from heavy metal songs such as “give your soul to me, for eternity” and “The Halo over our demise, following a god so blind.” I need a little more insight on this issue cause I truly don’t understand Gods ways, or if i ever wanted to.