Affiliate Marketing Secrets

i’m 22 and have been at home working for 2 years. i quit college 2 years ago to follow my dreams, and since it has been harder than i thought to find my “niche” in life… my priorities have changed over those 2 years, and i still haven’t found a solid group of friends who share my views on life.
i have lived in the midwest my whole life and want to move away, preferably out West I.E. california or utah.. yet i don’t know what to do. i am Christian and thought i should just move out there and hope i find friends, but i’m still not sure what to do.. i’m in a pickle and don’t know where to go next in life..
what should i do?

lately ive been feeling very depressed because i constantly have these desires to dress up like a girl. ever since i can remember ive always fantasized what i would be like if i was a girl instead of a guy. im a 23 year old straight guy that’s into working out at the gym and everything normals guys like to do but deep down im holding onto a secret that ive only very recently told one of my female friends but shes not in my life anymore. my question is, are their many girls out there that would be completely okay with their boyfriend if he like doing this kind of thing? my ex girlfriend dressed me up once and it made me feel so happy. im not sure if she was that into it but it was so fun for me and i felt so great we went shopping together and bought girl clothes for me. lingerie and sexy outfits and i even bought a couple wigs online and she got me makeup lol. i know this sounds weird and everything but we were totally messing around and having fun that night dressing me up and making me look like a girl lol. im a good looking guy and i actually looked really pretty as a girl! it made me feel so beautiful i had a long, thick, dark brown wig on with wavy hair styled up in the back and i got to have really dark mascara and pink sparkling lip gloss. my eyelashes looked so great cuz i have naturally long ones lol. she also had me put on black fishnet stockingss with bows on them and red leggings things underneath and this like sexy santa outfit :))) she took pictures of me and i took some of myself and my greatest fantasy finally came true haha. i looked SUPER sexy and pretty in all of the pictures too! for years and years i always dreamed of having a girl give me a makeover and help me dress up in heels and a wig and have girl-time. i think maybe its my way of escaping from everyday life or something but i just cant help wanting to do it no matter how hard i try, i think about it a lot :/ i feel really alone with this and i cant talk to ANYONE about it your opinions are really appreciated and if someone can help me feel better with this that would be really nice. i dont know what to do about these feelings anymore. im seriously a TOTALLY normal guy besides this. i work 6 days a week in the freezing cold as a marketing specialist and ive become the lead guy in my department. maybe if im really lucky some nice person on here will talk to me so i can get some of this off my chest? i havent even slept yet tonight. thanks guys and please dont leave any rude comments i know this is a strange question i just dont know where else to turn :/