I met a young woman 10 years ago when we first started college. I failed to have the confidence to approach her and upon the day in which I did, she dropped the course. Eventually, I found her on MySpace. She rejected me saying that she was “having problems with the male race”. I probably terrified her.
As a relatively private introvert, I did not take it well and made some drastic changes the following years. I ended up finishing school in another state hoping to greet social change. It was indifferent. After school, I worked for a petrochemical company in Japan for 2 years before finding my niche in derivatives and forex. I returned to the states a year ago and my social life still does not existent.
I have tried dating. Coworkers and long time acquaintances have introduced me to friends and family and they have never worked.
I do not know why I admire her so much. Perhaps she is just so smart and conscientious that I cannot let go. Or perhaps, what the shrink says is true and my inability to let go and fail has become a detriment to my mind.
I have a wedding to attend in winter. I’ll be lending my GT2 to my older brother. He tells me if I really cannot give up, try one last time since time has passed. Perhaps a coincidental car accident preferably when she is not in her vehicle leaving a note to contact me.
We would meet at a bank and I would act as if I knew her once. Unfortunately, this is wrong in many ways. Materialism, manipulation, invasion of privacy, and especially stalking which I believe it what she feared. They are all morally wrong and still do not guarantee anything. In the end I just might end up with a two way $20,000 repair and compensation job which is easily 3 months insurance.
So, I am curious if the masses of people think that the plan is worth it, and if any of you have amoral suggestions.
I expect some insults and jokes. That is fine as well. •))