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i am so much depressed that he always mention me that i am fat,do dieting and go to gym,i know he is saying for my good only,but i am feeling its too much now,he is always back of me even if i eat he observes me,even if i go to gym n being good in diet he still sees me like i am some idiot cow,we are not at all happy married couple now,what to do im pcos but i have obesity problem since my childhood,all my life comments,humiliating,for my marraige i went to some slimming centres n lost weight,but it came up back again,now by his frustration i started secret eating,and i am fed up i am becoming more worse not doing diet at all,before i sleep,he says me off,and in the morning he says me ,u cant understand a simple thing that dieting and exercise works,i have a 20 months child now,he says to my daughter that im mad,he is so comfort that i will not divorce bcoz we got a child,in my community once u got a child,u should stay with hil until u die,even my dad he says try to adjust,try to become thin,im 29 he says me i m old now i cant get another man,ur out of market,he makes me feel that i m a useless stone in world,then i argues with him to make it worse first of all think of ur faults not pointing at others,he smokes,drinks,i say ok u stop smoking,i will stop eating sweets,but he says smoking is nothing he knows his limits,but i am a bullshitter that i eat sweets,in my mind every morning i think,oh today i should be good n take care of my health,i want to become thin,but n the morning itself he starts u will never change,i really want to die,but what about my child,i know i amm not fit,even if i die the next month he will try to find another wife and mom to my child(probably thin one),what to do shall i go for some surgery like stomach stiching or something,bcos he is killing me with his words,i feel now very ugly,and the more he criticize me i will more eat badfoods stop gym,i dont know food is my comfort only my friend,can u advise me to what to do plzz,or i should just die so that like me ugly creature will be no more in between beautifull people,can u advise me good easy way to die plzz..and ofcourse i AM doing in my life is bcoz he wishes ,bcoz i dont have any interest anymore i am a blank mind with just food…..