Posted on 09 November 2012. Tags: apprciate, being judgemental, bitterness, course, friendships, high grades, lonely in a crowded room, moment, negative qualities, niche, reoccurance, sense, uni life, university, would make sense
It seems like a reoccurance for all my life – not fitting in anywhere. I thought university would change things but I feel I have no niche at all. Joining societies and meeting people elsewhere is fine for most people – but with my course I spend a lot of time with my coursemates and am going to – for more than the standard 3 years. So it would make sense I find my closest friends there. But at the moment I feel so **** all the time, lonely – in a crowded room (now I really can apprciate that phrase ;(), angry (at others and myself) and bitterness.
I know I’m being judgemental about people but I KNOW I don’t fit it. There are some nice people but I can’t see myself being best friends with them because we’re SOSO different. I know people can be friends with different interests, it’s just that I have not found anyone with similar interests.
I feel depressed at the prospect of going to university for a long time – just for the degree, and not enjoying myself. I even thought of dropping the course, reverting back to my hermit lifestyle back home.
I’m just so sick of it all – all my life I feel left out, different and isolated. There’s been issues with just about every aspect of my uni life so far – I regret getting in now. No friendships developing with flatmates, coursemates.
I feel apathetic all the time and have no motivation to do anything. Before I used to study all the time – and my reward would be my high grades. I thought this would change during university – that I’d actually have friends I could party and hang around with who enjoyed my company and vice versa. I suppose I dreamed a little unrealistically. It’s so depressing that I used to think it’ll be over soon, and I’ll be out of here (school etc) with good grades, then I can find some friends… But now all this is just happening again.
University has made me shallow, insecure, and bought out some negative qualities in me – that perhaps were lurking there anyway. But mostly it’s made me feel very low, but is supposed to be one of the best times of my life.
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Posted on 09 November 2012. Tags: apprciate, being judgemental, bitterness, course, friendships, high grades, lonely in a crowded room, moment, negative qualities, niche, reoccurance, sense, uni life, university, would make sense
It seems like a reoccurance for all my life – not fitting in anywhere. I thought university would change things but I feel I have no niche at all. Joining societies and meeting people elsewhere is fine for most people – but with my course I spend a lot of time with my coursemates and am going to – for more than the standard 3 years. So it would make sense I find my closest friends there. But at the moment I feel so **** all the time, lonely – in a crowded room (now I really can apprciate that phrase ;(), angry (at others and myself) and bitterness.
I know I’m being judgemental about people but I KNOW I don’t fit it. There are some nice people but I can’t see myself being best friends with them because we’re SOSO different. I know people can be friends with different interests, it’s just that I have not found anyone with similar interests.
I feel depressed at the prospect of going to university for a long time – just for the degree, and not enjoying myself. I even thought of dropping the course, reverting back to my hermit lifestyle back home.
I’m just so sick of it all – all my life I feel left out, different and isolated. There’s been issues with just about every aspect of my uni life so far – I regret getting in now. No friendships developing with flatmates, coursemates.
I feel apathetic all the time and have no motivation to do anything. Before I used to study all the time – and my reward would be my high grades. I thought this would change during university – that I’d actually have friends I could party and hang around with who enjoyed my company and vice versa. I suppose I dreamed a little unrealistically. It’s so depressing that I used to think it’ll be over soon, and I’ll be out of here (school etc) with good grades, then I can find some friends… But now all this is just happening again.
University has made me shallow, insecure, and bought out some negative qualities in me – that perhaps were lurking there anyway. But mostly it’s made me feel very low, but is supposed to be one of the best times of my life.
Posted in Affiliate Marketing 101