Because of my view of Islam my parents think i’m becoming an extremist because I think pictures, tv ,music, certain soap is haram etc. while they’re more lenient and think many rulings were of “zaman moayan” ie. almost everything is halal as long as you have good intention/almost everything has an excuse. I love them but things are becoming difficult for me.
Okay so basically My parents won’t let me pray sunna salahs and qada salahs (from years past) (because they believe the amount of time I spend praying daily is making me fall behind in school/make me anti-social/) and I have about a week of qada (of sunnah and qada) salah to make up. I’ve been thinking of methods to make them up without my parents knowing, for instance I pray during lunch time, but I can normally only make up one salah, maybe two and when my parents are out etc. I’ve been trying to pray in bed, but sometimes I accidentily sleep + sometimes I don’t have wadu and if I make wadu after isha my parents get suspicious. I have also been setting my alarm to wake me up in the middle of the night, but my mother sometimes unplugs my alarm clock when I’m not looking. Is it okay to do “secret salah” in whatever means possible? like sitting in the car, pretending to do homework/reading a book, while in stores and super markets pretending to be in “another section” make small motions with my body and then cut salah whenever my parents talk to me? my father has ” ‘adaytny dag” several times, and one time even got out a “sikeen” when he was really mad but my mom convinced him to put it away. Is it okay for me to do it faster than usual? Read surat Al-fatiha without pausing? Isn’t it wajb? Any exceptions because of circumstances?
ps. I also want to make qada for some years I didn’t fast but after fasting 5 days in a row my parents physically force me to eat. Is my fast valid if I have intention to fast but my circumstances prevent me? So far for the past 2/3 weeks or so I have been fasting every single day and don’t eat unless my parents force me to eat
p.p.s I realise that I am making qada for sunnah, but that’s a personal decision, even if I don’t have to I want to.