I’m just going to vaguely attempt to summarize all of this:
I cannot be proud of anything I accomplish, no matter how difficult, or I am called a freak. I must view all of my accomplishments as crap.
If I point something out, no matter how obvious to me it is and oblivious to others (eg. an obviously mentally unstable person who shouldn’t be in school) people called me a ‘paranoid crazy’. They don’t listen to me and then something bad happens.
I got banned off of many websites just for asking questions about science eg. what would happen if all water molecules were positively charged, yet obvious troll questions stay up. Everyone singles me out to hurt me.
People love calling me stupid and making me feel really low. One person wouldn’t stop asking what my IQ was. Finally, I gave up and told her. She said in no way can I have an IQ of 160. I told her I took two psychological exams and she said I bet your parents are proud of you I said they are because I’m their handy son who can fix stuff in the house she said I’ll get knocked in the ‘real world’. I’m never mean…I’m always polite. I don’t boast about anything. I’m honest.
I try my best with grammar and spelling and I have been told numerous times a 5th grader could write better grammar and spelling.
My Asperger Syndrome is a ‘disease’ apparently and apparently caused by my mom being drunk. She never drank, people said that my mother is a bad parent when she isn’t, what I have is a genetic condition.
Whenever I plan on doing something eg. building a model rocket, people always tell me I can’t do it, because I’m too stupid and I’ll mess up and blow people up, same goes for programming games which I do sometimes, I get told, I can’t do this, I can’t do that, I am inferior.
Don’t even get me started on looks. Apparently I look like a nerd. I got years of abuse for that, and at 19, I still do. I’m also abused because I don’t follow everyone like a clone.
I have PTSD from severe bullying mental and physical. Whenever somebody bullies me, I become violent now. I never used to be, I used to just cry but now I get these urges. I’ve developed what some may call a fascination with blood and things affiliated.
Also, because of the stress from all of this I’ve lost motivation for a lot of things including life skills.
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Why Do People Have To Put Me Down So Much?
Posted on October 30, 2012.
ok kid stick up 4 your self– keep your head up– – take self defense classes and try to go to the doctor and get on meds that can help u– — nerds are cool and virgins are cool– but dont let people push you around ————
People sometimes say things without realising the consequence of their words. Best not to take anything personally and continue doing what YOU know you are good at. We all pass through tough patches, but most people eventually find prople they can relate to. So statistically speaking it is only a question of time till you find friends whose wavelenghth yiu share. Till then, ignore harsh words , and learn to deal intelligently with even unintelligent behaviour.
You sound like a very intelligent person, and I don’t have a huge amount of time, so I will be brief and answer you in outline – you go ahead and fill in the gaps and details. I have the solution.
Being intelligent and good looking and kind and having any number of other positive qualities, will count for nothing if you do not have a positive outlook on life. Two books that you must read are “The Intention Experiment” and “The Secret”. You can base the principles on the “observer effect”, or whatever you like, but I guarantee that it will work miracles in your life.
Your problem is that you somehow believe that the world will hate you. I don’t know why this is, and I don’t care. Hundreds of millions of people believe this, and they all suffer as a result. You need to change your very mindset. Consider NLP and find a positive outgoing, successful role model and emulate their speech patterns and mannerisms. Then relax. If you try too hard you defeat the point. Find out what you enjoy and do it, and for God’s sake, don’t take yourself so seriously – you’re only human.