Dear advisers, i got many good answers and help online for my case and i find them useful but i still have many things in my mind:
this was the case:
i am a girl 29 years old a muslim,, i have been sexually abused 8 years before .. i was sexually harassed by the person i had to work with at that time i was 21 and he was 43 Jewish man in a security company …he had a high position in charge of the project we were working on and i was his assistant and translator which mean that i was totally under his control …. he threatened me not to talk and kicked me ut of the job and told my family that he had caught me with a young guy in office doing sex… since that time i live in horror fear of what happened to me and the lie he made on me … i almost lost my family’s trust in me and i almost cant have nice job or to marry a good nice person i admire.. i cannot fall in love and i have sexual problems fearing harassment again .. a few months before he sent a young guy this time who is under age 17 to force me have sex with me and sent me threatening message by imprisoning me if i dont have sex with him..i live in far and have lost self confidence and cannot defend on myself … i am scared if he kidnapped me and take to prostitution business.. i see bad dreams at night and my family is so helpless… please advise ? an anonymous person …
I still need support?
i agree with these suggestions and advises given by those people online.. i never want to be someone’s object and no one is born to humiliate and exploit me in a life given by God to me but my location the place where i live is very complicated … we don’t have embassies and consulates who provide people with visas.. i am in a country already passed and finished war… it is chaotic .. governments and official are busy with constitution, security, political matters .. my problem will make no meaning to them .. and we have one thousand family problem a sister of mine who is 37 is a revolutionist working with rebellious group and she is having gun and weapon with her all the time and she is from a very dangerous tribal network in which it is hard to escape … if i get 100 meters away from home will come and follow me and imprison me in a room .. my brother is also affiliated with same tribe and rebellious group they have closed tight mentality … i have thought to escape and leave country but there is no way ,, no visas are issues from any embassy beside if i visit any of them they will reject me because i am a girl , let’s say woman and not married… all the ties and political relations that those embassies have is with government and they both together have list of names of some families who are eligible and permitted to leave country … i am not coming from in just place … during out these 10 years i have tried to escape .. but failed .. i went to Turkey, Syria, Jordan, Holland, even Belgium for a very short stay .. they have very restricted rules and i have very limited freedom to get to them.. and ask for residency or protection or shelter… i had been abused and harassed by foreigners and i am muslim as i told you.. and my family has been accused of terrorism action … because as i mentioned my brother and my sister belong to a tribal network who have connection with terrorist organizations… if i open my mouth in any place outside country will not work because if i ask for residency protection shelter whatsoever else they will open up terrorism case as well … in a simple words i am living in Iraq and the person who have abused me is a high military official with coalition forces in Iraq and is in command of US army’s security for my region the city which i live in iraq called Erbil…women’s organizations , shelters and other places are affiliated with dirty business they will victimize me twice if i go to them will target me to work officially with prostitution networks in kurdistan and they will force me to spy in amry in iraq because i can speak good English they force me to travel all over Iraq and spy among US army to steal and collect them information .. or they will force me to make seminars and workshops to tell community that i am victim and talk about my experience in public which is again another deforming attempt and destruction to my life … and i will never try smuggling way to go illegal from Turkey and find way out to Europe and US …it will cost me my life .. so i am struggling between life and death .. I tried telling someone outside but the attempt failed and i found myself in hands of my family …i believe if i continue with you online i will find a solution because i felt so encouraged talking to you people online … thank for your help and advise it is helping me so please continue with me for a while at least i know there is someone who knows about me and i loved the statement justice cannot be found everywhere that is why i am not trying court …