I am currently a senior. Back in 2006, I was in sixth grade. I knew this guy since elementary, we were always cool. Lets call him Q. One day, Q and his slightly younger cousins were trying to throw rocks from the sidewalk at our house, but they kept missing. My older brothers told them to stop and go home. They said that they were coming back with their much older cousins (who were in a gang) because they claimed that my younger sister and I called them the n word. That was the reasoning for trying to throw rocks. But we never said anything like that. Later, Q returned with his younger and older, gang-affiliated cousins. My older brothers and Q and his cousins were talking in the intersection of the street. My brother soon called me in to apologize, so we can move on. My brother said to shake one of his cousin’s hands, and apologize to solve things. When I went to shake his hand, he grabbed my hand and Q sucker punched me in my face. Before I realized what happened, they ran down the street. I never encountered him again, but he did go to my high school for a minute.
Since 7th grade, I have changed. I feel the need to fight, and defend my self even though the I have never had to since that incident. I started cussing and looking at the world from a different perspective. When strangers stand near me, I feel like I have to put my guard up in case they start attacking me. It is hard for me to talk about the incident because it bothers me and embarrasses me. I feel a small amount of resentment towards my older brother, and obviously Q.
I am not sure if the incident is connected to my personality change, but it did occur months after the incident. I have felt depressed since 7th grade, but I feel like it may be more than depression. I do display symptoms of Schizoid PD if that helps.
I know that Post Traumatic Stress Disorder is common in war veterans, and people that suffered from extreme physical or sexual assaults. However, this incident did not threaten my health, and I was had no visible other than a temporary cut in my mouth.
Any information would be appreciated and thoughts!