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I’m just going to vaguely attempt to summarize all of this:
I cannot be proud of anything I accomplish, no matter how difficult, or I am called a freak. I must view all of my accomplishments as crap.
If I point something out, no matter how obvious to me it is and oblivious to others (eg. an obviously mentally unstable person who shouldn’t be in school) people called me a ‘paranoid crazy’. They don’t listen to me and then something bad happens.
I got banned off of many websites just for asking questions about science eg. what would happen if all water molecules were positively charged, yet obvious troll questions stay up. Everyone singles me out to hurt me.
People love calling me stupid and making me feel really low. One person wouldn’t stop asking what my IQ was. Finally, I gave up and told her. She said in no way can I have an IQ of 160. I told her I took two psychological exams and she said I bet your parents are proud of you I said they are because I’m their handy son who can fix stuff in the house she said I’ll get knocked in the ‘real world’. I’m never mean…I’m always polite. I don’t boast about anything. I’m honest.
I try my best with grammar and spelling and I have been told numerous times a 5th grader could write better grammar and spelling.
My Asperger Syndrome is a ‘disease’ apparently and apparently caused by my mom being drunk. She never drank, people said that my mother is a bad parent when she isn’t, what I have is a genetic condition.
Whenever I plan on doing something eg. building a model rocket, people always tell me I can’t do it, because I’m too stupid and I’ll mess up and blow people up, same goes for programming games which I do sometimes, I get told, I can’t do this, I can’t do that, I am inferior.
Don’t even get me started on looks. Apparently I look like a nerd. I got years of abuse for that, and at 19, I still do. I’m also abused because I don’t follow everyone like a clone.
I have PTSD from severe bullying mental and physical. Whenever somebody bullies me, I become violent now. I never used to be, I used to just cry but now I get these urges. I’ve developed what some may call a fascination with blood and things affiliated.
Also, because of the stress from all of this I’ve lost motivation for a lot of things including life skills.