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My impression of her from facebook and skype over the summer from our university class facebook group, was that she was some nice, innocent girl but also very naive and not that street smart.
What i didnt know, was how much of a mean, vicious girl she really is.
Beginning of this school year, Taylor, Kyle and I were best friends.Taylor lived on the main campus, but Kyle and I lived downtown in university affiliated housing that barely anyone from my college lived in. So Kyle and I saw eachother way way way more than Taylor, especially since we lived across the hall from eachother. But Kyle and I got closer and closer until we started being physical and nearly had sex and stuff. I had real feelings for him and he said he did too. But we got into an argument and broke up. (it wasnt even face to face either….its complicated) after the breakup i spent a lot of time with Taylor
Ten days after the breakup (when he had no contact with talyor for like 2 weeks because he was never really thattt close with her), Kyle invites himself over to Taylor’s dorm….at 1 am….so he takes the subway like 25 minutes to go to her dorm. Taylor messages me saying “Kyle’s coming over” and of course, she doesnt say “no” when he invites himself. And he stays the night. He slept on the floor but still…taylor texted me in the morning saying “he stayed the night. lmao” i was so pissed off.
Then Taylor and kyle become close friends and hang out all the time… (Taylor liked him. i knew she liked him from the start even when he and i had our thing)
I started being close to Taylor’s roommate Maria, but she would be like “faq off. shes MY friend!” to Maria. Taylor was VERY possesive of friends. She would say all these mean things about Maria to everyone. It was awful…
Taylor then told me on facebook chat that our friendship was over. She accused me of being a bad friend for choosing Maria over her. I never did this…i tried being friends with both. But she just called the friendship off.
Taylor and her friend Kayla made a list of the reasons they love and hate Kyle. Number one on their list of hate was “cuz he hooked up with Melissa…ewwww” and then a girl walks into the room and goes “hooked up with who?” and Kayla goes “some slut” so apparently they think of me as a slut….when all i did was make out with Kyle…a lot of times!! I never even touched his penis or anything. I always kept my clothes on too! whatever….they are crazy….
number two on the hate list was “cuz he gives everyone mono” (i had thought Kyle might have given me mono,because i had some symptoms, so i had asked him via text about it, but he got very very angry. he complained to Taylor and Kayla about it and said i “accused” him of mono)
Maria would tell me, literally everytime I went to go see her, about how all Kyle, Kayla and Taylor talk about is me. Maria said they would make jokes about how i probably “followed” kyle. She would tell me every single thing she heard them say about me. She was like “yeah, Kyle’s not a fan”.
Its just really not nice at all that they acted this way. I had real feelings for Kyle before, and we had some issues together that we between US. not the whole world. It was not Taylor’s place to keep bringing up stuff about us…When Kyle and i were a thing, we kept it secret. but i told taylor and another friend because i needed to tell someone about us. I told taylor not to tell anyone. But of course, once Kyle and i broke up, she told the whole world about how we hooked up….some friend….
Also, she told everyone that I was going to transfer out and go back to san francisco (where i am from), all beause of her. Yes, i was thinking of transferring out, but it wasnt cuz of her. Maria said she was telling everyone this and saying how she hoped i would transfer…
Once Maria and Eva became friends with Taylor again, and even Kyle, they stopped talking to me. I havent heard from them in nearly two months, and havent seen them in almost three. (and that was for dinner one night in the student center for a half hour)
Taylor apologized like two weeks ago on skype (a kid we were friends with over the summer told her recently to just apologize) saying “hey look, can we start over?” and saying how i was one of the people she regretted losing as a friend. she said she kinda backed off before, because she thought i wasnt her biggest fan. I told her i forgave her and stuff. But we hadnt talked originally since early october..
I havent heard from her in almost two weeks tho….so i dont think she is rushing to being my friend anyway….
But…should i even trust her?

Im a freshman in college in a big city. But its not a college friendly city. I feel like I literally have no friends. Im not a complete anti social person, its just that many friendships have drifted away. Especially since I dont live on campus (i live 25 min away by subway downtown in a university affiliated housing. It has like 1% of all the students at my college)
There was a group on facebook for my class. Literally all my close friends in the beginning of the year were from that facebook group (we chatted over the summer and stuff). Without that group, I would have had literally 0 friends the entire year.
My closest friend ever at this school was a guy named Steven. We got along so well and we were such great friends. So close to the point where we actually dated. Long story short it ended badly because he was horrible at communication. He was too immature to discuss a relationship, even though we literally in one. Just not officially. He never spoke to me again after i told him we were a mistake. (i said that because he was being a complete dick head to me and very rude) That was a little past the middle of september when we broke up
When I compare my life back in September, to now, its completely different. Back then I had such a busy social schedule. I was never ever alone. If I was alone, it was like for an hour or two max per day. Literally. I had people constantly texting me to hang out. I just had a solid group
No one really contacts me to see how im doing. I mean, I have one friend that contacts me a few times a week to eat meals with her and chat. Then I have another that contacts me like every other week or so to see how im doing, but other than that no. One girl who I thought i was close with, is now mainly a professional relationship. I am president of a club, and I am essentially her boss. So when we talk, its just about the organization and responsibilites.
My roommate is not mean, its just that we never talk.
Its just so lonely and isolating here. No one on my floor talks to me because of the breakup with Steven. Steven is the most popular guy on my floor, and they all side with him. This is such a terrible thing to say, but I feel like I could drop dead in my room, and no one would notice. I mean, literally no one on my floor has talked to me since last semester except for two people saying hello.
Its not like i have a huge problem with this lifestyle. I mean, its pretty productive because I have more time to devote to my extracurriculars and my non-profit job. But still, when I see like on facebook and stuff how social everyone is compared to me, its kinda depressing. Even just hearing Steven outside my door in the hall with his friends, and all the parties they have in his room make me feel a bit excluded.
I tried making plans with a “friend” (though clearly she aint my friend) for last thursday. At that point we had seen eachother ONCE since November. And that one time was just dinner for a half hour. So I texted her about plans. She said “sure thing. dinner thursday. text me thursday girl!” then i texted her on thursday at noon about dinner. She never responded. Ive given up. I just cant extend myself to these people anymore. (its not just that. she is friendly with Steven now, and ever since that she hasnt talked to me)
I feel like Steven is the queen bee, and im the complete opposite. He is so popular and everyone adores him. Boys and girls. Yet I definitely dont get that attention…

I am in my second semester of my Sophomore year in college. I have people to sit with in class, people who I do community service with (I’m in a community service club) people I feel comfortable texting to go to the gym, study with, or get food with but, I don’t have any close friends. I don’t really have anyone to hang out with. On Friday and Saturday nights I usually end up studying by myself and I just feel like a complete loser. At this point everyone already found their niche and has a concrete group of close friends. I feel like unless you are really outgoing (which I am not) it is almost impossible to inject yourself into an already formed group of friends and become part of that group. I feel incredibly lonely here because i don’t have any satisfying relationships with people. Nobody really cares about me here since I am not part of anyone’s close friends group. I am just that extraneous friend that is nice to have but nobody really needs.
College is supposed to be a great experience where people figure out who they are, experiment, and have a ton of fun. I feel like I am missing out on everything that is wonderful about college. At this point, I want to graduate already and put college behind me. I wish I didn’t feel that way but I do. I am frustrated that making close friends is so hard for me. I feel like everyone else kind of makes friends naturally and has an easy time “clicking” and connecting with people. It is supposed to be fairly easy to make friends in college. I am so scared that if I can’t make close friends in college how am I going to make friends after I graduate? Making friends usually gets harder when you get older. I just wish I didn’t have to worry about all this. All my friends from High school made a ton of close friends in college and they are all having a great time. Everyone always looks forward to going back to school after breaks and dread it. What is wrong with me?

Sorry if you’ve seen this post question somewhere, just need more advice.
Please read the whole thing, this isn’t a life-rambling question.
I don’t really care what happens to other people unless it rebounds on me and affects me, other than that I feel no empathy for the person unless it is something BIG. I hardly care about my friends, even my close friends but I still love them and will look out of them but I just don’t feel emotionally connected to them. I don’t care what happens to people only if I’m not affiliated or involved in it. I sometimes just feel very empty emotionally but feel like I am jinxing myself if I do not show my condolences (not specifically death but a serious event) and end up praying for them and being sympathetic, when deep inside.. I’m not sure if I do.
I always put myself in front before anyone else but if I feel low confident in a certain area of participation I would let everyone else go in front of me. I’m very paranoid and have a hatred towards things, not sure why though. If I ever think that something will happen, before any question pops up, I always ask myself “how will this affect me” and how I would respond to it.. I can’t really blame myself, I reckon it is because of untreated delusions.
Funny part is, if it does affect me – I instantly turn into an angel and try my hardest to resolve and to non-nonchalantly calm the situation. Best part is, it helps them but it helps me too, more than them to be personal about it.
The other funny part is, if I think the person is a threat to me or feel like they are no good to me, I block them out of my life and try to exclude them like I’ve never wanted to know them, I’ve actually done that a few times and it has worked.
I’m not that self-centered, I donate because I want to help, not because I get something out of it.. I try my best to help but if it begins to be a threat to me, I begin to panic and try to find ways that will benefit ME.
Example:
2 of my friends were having a very viscous verbal and was soon-to-be physical fight, the grudge my friend held against my other friend (who appeared calmer) went on for days and my friend who help the grudge would whine to me for hours at a time about him and how much he hates him.. I acted upon it and made them say sorry to each other, now they are friends.. I didn’t do it for them to be friends, I did it for myself so my friend who held the grudge would stop bitching.
Example 2:
One of my friends did weed, I excluded him and neglected him from my life for a few months, I them approached him and threatened him that if he touches weed again – our friendship is finished and completely over. I didn’t come to that threat because of ONLY the weed, I did it also because he was a complete dick at the time and didn’t want to associate with someone who would get high every week and offer me that stuff. I couldn’t care less if he did weed, but when he offered me this one time, I felt like I was being invaded.
Example 3: In process:
This girl I’ve met recently went through a breakup, I gave her the best advice and she loves me too much and thinks I’m charming, amazing, perfect and is in love with me and wants to start a relationship with me.. I don’t have any love towards her, and if any feelings for her.. It would’ve only lasted for a few hours.. She is now being too clingy that I’m hoping she would get bored of me and understand that I want to remain friends. We then got into a fight… we made up and compromised and she admitted that she loves me and doesn’t deserve me.. I couldn’t feel anything towards it, not even a connection.
I lie to satisfy other people and not to hurt them or make me look bad, let’s just say that I’m a very talented and skilled liar but I’m not a pathological one, I donate to charity and to help the people who are suffering in other countries in the world but I don’t feel empathy for them, I just don’t get that. I really can’t tell anyone in my real life this or else they’ll feel like they are a burden and possibly exclude me for thinking I don’t care about them, which is true but I must keep that behind the mask.
I don’t love many people, I don’t cry over videos or photos, I have these weird thoughts that are very subtle and are really strange. I just don’t feel like a human, I don’t really like a lot of humans. feel like I can read people’s expressions, feelings and action like a book, I can look at a person and judge their personality, appearance, insecurities and successions, though it could misjudgement.
Today, me and my friends walked past this road and we saw a cat that was dead on the road, they freaked out and were sad. They had no reason to be sad to be honest, it is a cat who is dead, you don’t know anything about it but it is dead.
I love my family, even though I do

So I’ve been in a relationship technically for 4 years. Two years with a real jerk starting at age 15, then another two years with a great guy starting at 17 and lasting until a few weeks ago at age 19. Most of our relationship was long distance (2hrs) because we go to different universities. So the only new “friend” I made at college was my roommate. We were both always gone on the weekends seeing our boyfriends and weren’t very social because we both didn’t need to be at the time. Bf’s were our life.
Well my most recent Ex thought it would be best to break up because I was the only girlfriend he had ever had and so I don’t really blame him. The sucky part is that we still care for each other and didn’t end on bad terms.
ANYWAYS, HERE IS THE QUESTION:
I feel like a new student at my University because I don’t know anyone, and it’s the end of the school year pretty much. I am a sophomore and will be a junior next fall. I have like one or two close friends from High school who I can confide in for now, but will it be hard to find a group of girlfriends to hang out with? I am getting anxious and nervous about my future now and if I will be a loner for the rest of my life. Did anyone transfer from a Comm. College to a University and feel the same way? I feel like everyone already has their niche that they built during freshman year in the dorms.

Alright, so since yesterday, I have just been feeling very insecure and crappy. There are just a lot of things culminating. FYI: I a freshman in college.
-One of my friends got really drunk and had to be sent to the hospital….this is one of my good friends, and she is really upset that she did this, but it just makes me nervous because I really like this group of people, and now she did this
-I am not sure I like another group of friends that much, but I really want to
-My best friend from high school has found her niche and her close group of friends that she really likes, and I just am wondering why I haven’t. I still sometimes quesiton my friendships, I just don’t know how much of a bad thing that is….I guess I am just a little bit jealous of her?
-I have never been in a relationship, gone on a date, or even kissed a boy. For that matter I don’t think any guy has every been attracted to me
-Everytime there is a guy I like, something just goes wrong so that it doesn’t work out.
So I am a very outgoing person, and I generally am happy. I am a talker, and people tend to like me. I am not ugly (not ridiculously pretty). I work hard, and I have a strong set of morals-I try to be the best person I can be. I don’t feel the need to be mean to others, but if someone is outwardly mean to me, I don’t pretend to have time for them/pretend to care about them (this isn’t often). I have 2 really really close friends at home, and my family is very close. I have never felt this insecure before, I was always incredibly happy with my life in high school.
In regards to the boys- I have lots of guy friends, just no one that seem interested in more. I have been told that there is nothing necessarily wrong with me, just that I don’t come off as “available”. I have no clue how to fix this. I just don’t treat boys any differently than I do girls. The conversation is different, but I don’t act differently. Also, in college, I think lot’s of people just want hook-ups, and I am not interested in that. I also refuse for my first kiss to be at a party or antything.
So I guess my questions are:
-What do I do about my friends situation?
-What do I do about the boys situation?