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my best friend of almost 7 years (since 14 almost 21) judas got me pregnant, we were not planning this and i was on the pill and we used a condom…i will not abort or opt for adoption. one of judes (mybest friend and father of baby) ex girlfriends had an abortion and it really hurt his schooling,social life and life in general. he moved 9 hours away to go to school for history and anthropology.and i am currently in my junior yr studying marketing and managment, about to transfer into a honors baking and pastry art program. we fell in love at 18 but didnt want to risk our friendship since then we have dated on and off, however when he moved we agreed it was easier to be friends even though we both have much stronger feeling for each other. over his recent visit (almost a month and left 2weeks and a half ago) we had protected sex often. . . but it failed and here i am a little over 5 weeks pregnant (i found out after going to the doctor for other reasons i had blood work done). he has a good job but i have been a dancer for years, music videos concerts etc. that will no longer be an option for me with a belly :/ but i dont know how to go about telling him, i know he will not be exactly thrilled. he is moving back home by the end of this week so last night i tried to tell him i needed to talk to him, and he kinda just blew it off until i told him i got a gig dancing in a relatively well known music artists video but dont think i will be able to do it bc they wouldnt want me and told him it was all part of what we needed to talk about… he might stay with me and my roommates until he get a place of his own… only one of my roommates know. he is very stressed about his move back home and has this idea that when he moves everything is going to be perfect and happy :/
any advice on when or how to tell him? im so confused and kinda scared ;/ i know he will be there for me … after the shock and maybe after he drinks himself under the table… i still plan on going to school and i will make sure he does too, and if he does run i will still be the best mother i can be… i just dont know how to go about this one? i know i should be able to just say anythign to him,hes my bestfriend… but im having such a hard time…
sorry it is long, but thank you guys so much for taking to time!

so my best friend of almost 7 years (since 14 almost 21) judas got me pregnant, we were planning this and i was on the pill and we used a condom…i will not abort or opt for adoption. one of judes (mybest friend and father of baby) ex girlfriends had an abortion and it really hurt his schooling. he moved 10hors away to go to school for history and anthropology.and i am currently in my junior yr studying marketing and managment. we fell in love at 18 but didnt want to risk our friendship since then we have dated on and off and i am transfering schools to continue studying and attend a baking and pastry program. over his recent visit (almost a month and left 2weeks and a half ago) we had protected sex often. . . but it failed and here i am a little over 5 weeks pregnant (i found out after going to the doctor for other reasons). he has a good job but i have been a dancer for years, music videos concerts etc. that will no longer be an option for me with a belly :/ but i dont know how to go about telling him, i know he will not be exactly thrilled. he is moving back home by the end of this week so last night i tried to tell him i needed to talk to him, and he kinda just blew it off until i told him i got a gig dancing in a relatively well known music artists video but dont think i will be able to do it bc they wouldnt want me and told him it was all part of what we needed to talk about… i might be driving to get him and he will be staying with e until he finds an apartment.
any advice on when or how to tell him? im so confused and kinda scared ;/ i know he will be there for me … after the shock… i still plan on going to school and i will make sure he does too, and if he does run i will still be the best mother i can be… i just dont know how to go about this one?
sorry it is long, but thanks!

My name is Jacqueline Lea Annis Cartwright. I was conceived in the summer of 1959. My mother and father were separated at the time. My mother lived in the Piedmont Apartments in Pleasant Grove, TX, a section of Dallas. My mother held this secret about me until I was 49 years old. She claims his name was Leroy Walker, but that he went by the name Jack. She claims he operated a soda fountain inside a Pharmacy across the street from the apartments where she lived. I discovered the name of the pharmacy to be Jack Phillips Drug, and may have been affiliated with World Drug. She also claims he worked for the City of Dallas as a health inspector. She says he was quite a bit older than her and that he was married and had two teenage sons at the time. This tells me that I have two half-brothers. I assume that my birth father is disceased, but I have no information. She says he lived in an area around White Rock Lake in Dallas. I have searched genealogy sites but cannot access much because I cannot afford the fees. Any help would be greatly appreciated because the window is closing, my mother is 78 years old.