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I’ve sort of come to the idea that I just can’t find my own little niche yet. I’m an Korean adoptee, and I struggle between fitting in with my family, and fitting in with my ethnicity, if you know what I mean. Please don’t give me any “adoptee” facts or things like that, because I don’t really want to know about it. I just need some words of advice please.
My high school has its cliques, and the “asians” are probably one of the most cliquey. I hung out with them last year, but because I didn’t grow up the same way, I felt out of place even though they were all really nice. This year I hang out with my friends that I have all my life, and I made a new best friend (I have two now), but I still feel like I’m missing out on things. I have friends, not as many as I’d like though. It seems like all the people I’m with this year are old news, and I’ve been good friends with them in the past, but now it’s just like.. I’m there, and they’re there, but we don’t connect anymore. I feel like I’m having a really difficult time figuring out who my friends are.
I’m not unpopular, I don’t have any enemies and I’m nice to people.. but some days I feel really lonely. I’d never do anything dangerous with those feelings, but somedays I just feel low and cry. Have you ever reached a point in your life where you have just a few really good friends/best friends, and the rest are acquaintances? Any words of advice?

Ive put together many connections between the world today and the illuminati in todays world. Its a scary thing really. I’m not scared of it but the chance that its possible is interestingly freightening. But whats your opinion and what do you know?

I noticed that my friends are all known for something. One is sarcastic and funny, but also plays drums and likes rock music from the 50s to the 80s. Another plays guitar (mostly acoustic) and loves singer-songwriter type of music, John Mayer being his favorite and others of the like. Another is a gamer and LOVES computer programming as well as anything related to computers. My friends would identify me as the polite, quiet girl which is ok but those are qualities, not abilities or talents. Everyone in the group gets along with each other splendidly and there’s no competition at all but I want a niche of my own. My interests are nutrition, yoga, writing, and a tiny bit of psychology. I love anything related to health and wellness but I’m still learning a lot about the above interests so it’s still a bit hard for me to inform others about those things, also because they’re not interested in them.
My primary question is: in my downtime, how can I pursue my loves? What can I work on daily, so that I have more to talk about on Skype and I guess, show off when I’m with my friends?
When they come over to my house, I’ve tried preparing fruit trays by cutting the fruit in fancy ways or arranging them in aesthetically pleasing ways. They don’t care because they’re not mindful of their health and “it’s just food.” Like other college students, they love pizza, chips and soda. I’ve tried cooking dinners that are healthy but they didn’t really finish everything I prepared the way they can obliterate four, large pizza boxes. So I can’t really show off much of nutrition. (Can I?)
For example: It’s easy to talk about video games because you basically have to play a few at a time, and keep advancing in the levels so that you can tell others about each level and the secrets, ease, or difficulty of the game when the group is gathered together

I’m 19 years old and my entire life I’ve felt like I was something different than everyone else. Not in a good way either, more like I had a different mentality and understanding of the world than almost everyone else. For example, let’s say that 99.99% of the world’s population were apple Jolly Rancher’s, I always felt like I was a cherry Jolly Rancher in a world of apples. For whatever reason, I was always incredibly anti-social (and I still am today). I had several friends, but I found it hard to be able to relate to them as well. All the kids I talked to in my school on rare occasion seemed to be set on doing their homework, getting A’s on assignments and projects, and getting jobs while they were in school. I never liked homework; always blew it off to play video games and hang out with friends, always wanted a job but never had a half-decent resume of any kind, and was caught up in pipe dreams of one day making it big in the music industry. A few people I knew growing up wanted to make music too, but every single one of them copped out on it, because it was more of a trend and not something that was a passion for them like it is for me.
Many (almost all) of the people I associate with now talk about being in college, getting degrees, and choosing the profession of their dreams. But for me, I have no interest in doing any of that. I have a passion for music, writing, and tobacco products. My interest in following the path in life that so many choose to take was always temporary and superficial. The only value I saw in that lifestyle was being able to earn the respect of average people who only did what their parents did, and their grandparents did, and so on. That lifestyle seems empty to me and I feel like I’d be betraying myself if I followed it just to appease people in this society. I’d also be betraying myself if I tried to live an alternative lifestyle just to appeal to the counter-culture. I do what I do, because it’s what I want and not because it’s what other people want for me. I know that just by typing this, I’m gonna get comments from people who are going to accuse me of trying to live up to a lifestyle just for approval. I’m not worried about those people, I just wish they would realize that maybe someone out there really does want something different then what most people really have or really want.
The kinds of things I’m interested in are the kinds of things most people would associate with trouble like being a tattoo artist, or the owner of a pipe shop,or a liquor store manager, or even a rocker. I have tried many times to fit into the shoes of an average joe, but I just can’t do it. I don’t have the mentality, the patience, or the intelligence to be like them. It doesn’t mean I’m better or worse then every Betsy or Zack, it just means I don’t share the same niche. My belief system and understanding of the world is so dramatically different that I couldn’t possibly survive living this lie. It’s like I’m a puzzle piece from an entirely different puzzle that keeps getting jammed into the society puzzle. Believe me, I’ve tried to fit in and make my life count just like everyone around me, but it’s just not the same. I truly believe my purpose is else where, but if I don’t try to find out for sure, how will I ever know?

Like, absent from life…?

Like, absent from life…?