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I met a young woman nearly a decade ago when we first started college. I failed to have the confidence to approach her and upon the day in which I did, she dropped the course. Eventually, I found her on MySpace.
I admitted having had feelings for her and told her that i wished to give her a wooden watch I had crafted but only wanted to be friends. I probably terrified her and she rejected me saying that she was “having problems with the male race”.
As a relatively private introvert, I did not take it well and made some drastic changes the following years. I ended up finishing school in another state hoping to greet social change. It was indifferent. After school, I did it again and went to Japan. I worked for a Global 500 chemical company for 2 years there before finding my niche in derivatives, international stocks, and forex. I returned to the states a year ago and my social life still does not existent.
I have tried dating. Coworkers and long time acquaintances have introduced me to friends and family and they have never worked. Every time, I only thought of her.
I do not know why I admire her so much. Perhaps she is just so smart and conscientious that I cannot let go. Or perhaps, what the shrink says is true and my inability to let go and fail has become a detriment to my mind.
I have a wedding to attend in winter. I’ll be lending my GT2 to my older brother. He tells me if I really cannot give up, try one last time since time has passed and can be a change to mentality.
I am afraid of instilling the fear I may have once brought upon her and if she realizes availability of resources and expenses, I do not see a reason why she could not conclude to it. So, I am curious if you fine chaps happen to have any ideas of how I can approach her without seeming like an infatuated stalker.
Why am I insistent that she may be afraid? I also made the idiotic move of contacting her friends 9 years ago.
I expect some insults and jokes. That is fine as well.