Affiliate Marketing Secrets

I met a young woman 10 years ago when we first started college. I failed to have the confidence to approach her and upon the day in which I did, she dropped the course. Eventually, I found her on MySpace. She rejected me saying that she was “having problems with the male race”. I probably terrified her.
As a relatively private introvert, I did not take it well and made some drastic changes the following years. I ended up finishing school in another state hoping to greet social change. It was indifferent. After school, I worked for a petrochemical company in Japan for 2 years before finding my niche in derivatives and forex. I returned to the states a year ago and my social life still does not existent.
I have tried dating. Coworkers and long time acquaintances have introduced me to friends and family and they have never worked.
I do not know why I admire her so much. Perhaps she is just so smart and conscientious that I cannot let go. Or perhaps, what the shrink says is true and my inability to let go and fail has become a detriment to my mind.
I have a wedding to attend in winter. I’ll be lending my GT2 to my older brother. He tells me if I really cannot give up, try one last time since time has passed. Perhaps a coincidental car accident preferably when she is not in her vehicle leaving a note to contact me.
We would meet at a bank and I would act as if I knew her once. Unfortunately, this is wrong in many ways. Materialism, manipulation, invasion of privacy, and especially stalking which I believe it what she feared. They are all morally wrong and still do not guarantee anything. In the end I just might end up with a two way $20,000 repair and compensation job which is easily 3 months insurance.
So, I am curious if the masses of people think that the plan is worth it, and if any of you have amoral suggestions.
I expect some insults and jokes. That is fine as well. •))

i just realized today, that I don’t know who I am. I don’t know what I want. I got my college degree, now what? Settle down, cut out a niche of mediocrity for myself and just exist? I feel like I am meant to do something, but I don’t know what it is. I look at all these people with their cars, and iphones and I feel sad that people think that these toys are what happiness is. This bullshit materialism controls almost everyone, we trap ourselves with all these possessions, its like we are digging our own graves. Is this what life is? Just hoarding as much **** as possible? For what, we still all rot in the ground in the end, kings and beggars.