Affiliate Marketing Secrets

Okay, so everyone always told me that college would be the best 4 years of my life.. i’m more than halfway through my sophomore year, and so far they have been the worst years by far.
My first year i started off at a top university in california, and was really excited to go. Once i got there, i realized how big it was and how lost i felt, and i tried to make friends and find a niche, but still found myself with nobody to hang out with on the weekends… I have always been very academically driven, so i did spend a lot of time doing homework, but so did everyone at this place.
Anyways, I would cry myself to sleep most nights, and really hated the school. I was having an awful time, and decided that i should transfer, in the hopes of creating a fresh start. I transferred to a top liberal arts college on the east coast, and am now having an even worse time. I tried much harder this time to make friends and seek connections and join clubs and groups, and I feel so much worse here than at my old school. I cry myself to sleep quite often, and have had 2 therapists tell me that i’m clinically depressed (and i promise, i was happy as a clam in high school, so this is a new thing.) Also, during november and december of this year, i contemplated suicide multiple times a day, and came somewhat close to carrying it out a number of times.
Needless to say, I’m not having the best years of my life. I can’t drop out of college, because A.) my parents would never allow it, B.) I would never let myself live it down, and C.) I have nothing else to do. I also have no idea what i want to major in, and have lost interest in what i thought i was going to major in (so now i have no way to feasibly fit in any other major before i’m supposed to graduate.)
What should i do? I’m miserable on so many levels.

I made a website, but nobody visits it. I post my link everywhere, but nobody clicks on them. I don’t get it!

Like, seriously? It makes absolutely no sense as to why such a “might and powerful” organization would want these two. And if they were, would the Illuminati really want these guys to throw up the signs to expose the fact that they’re in a “SECRET” organization that nobody knows about. If they were this powerful, we wouldn’t know anything about them, right?
I don’t deny the fact that they could possibly exist but I don’t understand the reasoning. Can anyone explain why public figures would use a secret organization’s hand signals only to deny that they’re affiliated with it. What’s the logic behind this?