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First of all, I’m not friendLESS, which is a good sign. However, I do not feel like I have a solid group of friends that provides that social stability/support. I am currently a (female) sophomore in college and I am having a hard time finding my niche or close group of friends in college. I feel like most people make their friends from their hallway freshmen year. Last year I got unlucky and lived in a dorm that attracted the types of people I specifically could never find myself being friends with–the superficial party animals. I also roomed with a girl who seemed to be on the same page as me (ie: neither of us fit in with the types of people who chose to live in this dorm) but she wasn’t interested in being friends with me for some odd reason, and grew to dislike me for almost no apparent reason.
I remember within the first week we both felt like everyone in my hall clicked off very quickly and before I knew it, both of us were alone, and she ended up transferring out after the first semester. Looking back, I kind of wish I had too because I didn’t fit in at all. But for some reason I thought if I stuck it out maybe it would get better.
So that explains largely why I didn’t make that many friends my freshman year when I “should have”. The school I’m attending also has about 50,000 undergrads, so it can be difficult to make the connections.
This year, I’m living in an apartment with random roommates (and will probably find myself, embarassingly, doing the same thing my junior year :/). While I have some friends, I want a stable group of friends, but I feel like all the upperclassmen already have a group of friends and aren’t looking for any more. Plus, it is difficult to break into an already formed social circle. My problem is, I have a lot of trouble following through with relationships and turning acquaintances into friends. I have people who I sit with in class, see at work, etc. but I have an extremely difficult time taking relationships to the next level. Its not that I’m that fearful of rejection, I feel like the whole process of asking to get food or hang out will be awkward. I’m also afraid that it isn’t appropriate to take things to the next level.
At this point, I feel like it is most critical to make friends because in the working world it’s even more difficult. I would even like to find a mate in college if possible, but I don’t know if that will happen or not either.
It just seems like everyone else has found their niche here and is comfortable with their adult life whereas I feel like I am just floating around without any stable social relationships to keep me grounded. Again, I am not in a position where I have zero friends. I do have one really good friend who I’d consider reliable. I have two other friends (who are also mutual friends with each other), but both of them are social butterflies so I really only feel like an option to them. So they’re not very reliable because they both already have their own separate group of friends.
What can I do to improve my confidence in my social life?

Im a freshman in college in a big city. But its not a college friendly city. I feel like I literally have no friends. Im not a complete anti social person, its just that many friendships have drifted away. Especially since I dont live on campus (i live 25 min away by subway downtown in a university affiliated housing. It has like 1% of all the students at my college)
There was a group on facebook for my class. Literally all my close friends in the beginning of the year were from that facebook group (we chatted over the summer and stuff). Without that group, I would have had literally 0 friends the entire year.
My closest friend ever at this school was a guy named Steven. We got along so well and we were such great friends. So close to the point where we actually dated. Long story short it ended badly because he was horrible at communication. He was too immature to discuss a relationship, even though we literally in one. Just not officially. He never spoke to me again after i told him we were a mistake. (i said that because he was being a complete dick head to me and very rude) That was a little past the middle of september when we broke up
When I compare my life back in September, to now, its completely different. Back then I had such a busy social schedule. I was never ever alone. If I was alone, it was like for an hour or two max per day. Literally. I had people constantly texting me to hang out. I just had a solid group
No one really contacts me to see how im doing. I mean, I have one friend that contacts me a few times a week to eat meals with her and chat. Then I have another that contacts me like every other week or so to see how im doing, but other than that no. One girl who I thought i was close with, is now mainly a professional relationship. I am president of a club, and I am essentially her boss. So when we talk, its just about the organization and responsibilites.
My roommate is not mean, its just that we never talk.
Its just so lonely and isolating here. No one on my floor talks to me because of the breakup with Steven. Steven is the most popular guy on my floor, and they all side with him. This is such a terrible thing to say, but I feel like I could drop dead in my room, and no one would notice. I mean, literally no one on my floor has talked to me since last semester except for two people saying hello.
Its not like i have a huge problem with this lifestyle. I mean, its pretty productive because I have more time to devote to my extracurriculars and my non-profit job. But still, when I see like on facebook and stuff how social everyone is compared to me, its kinda depressing. Even just hearing Steven outside my door in the hall with his friends, and all the parties they have in his room make me feel a bit excluded.
I tried making plans with a “friend” (though clearly she aint my friend) for last thursday. At that point we had seen eachother ONCE since November. And that one time was just dinner for a half hour. So I texted her about plans. She said “sure thing. dinner thursday. text me thursday girl!” then i texted her on thursday at noon about dinner. She never responded. Ive given up. I just cant extend myself to these people anymore. (its not just that. she is friendly with Steven now, and ever since that she hasnt talked to me)
I feel like Steven is the queen bee, and im the complete opposite. He is so popular and everyone adores him. Boys and girls. Yet I definitely dont get that attention…

Up until the end of middle school, I had a nice, tight group of smart friends. I was in band school, as well as other clubs. I made all A’s without fail. But towards the end I started to become very concious about how I looked, and started only wearing hoodies because I thought I was fat and unattractive. By the time high school started, some of my friends split into different schools, and all I cared about was fitting in. I tried to dress like the popular black girls at my school (even though I am nothing like them, I’m what you call an “oreo”), I tried to act like them and hang around with them. But I still felt so out of place and lonely all the time. I cried often. I didn’t go out on the weekends. My grades were slipping and soon B’s and C’s were common. Sophomore year was a little better, but I still often felt lonely and wasn’t involved in anything out of school.
Now I’m nearing the end of my Junior year, and I’ve grown so much as a person. I’m a lot more comfortable in my own skin and with my appearance, I’m VERY outgoing and funny at school. I don’t care anymore at all about fitting in with “cool kids”. I still really like dressing well, and people know me for that. However, I’m still lonely. The friends I used to be close to in middle school are now very high up and successful, one is even number 1 in our class, while I’m all the way at 101 out of 446. I’m only in two clubs and I’m not very active in them. I have many acquaintances but not a solid group of friends. I often find myself walking or sitting alone, and I think people get the impression that I think I’m too good for people because of how I dress or look, but that’s not true at all! Most of the smart kids I see around in their little groups of friends, I’m so jealous of and would do anything to be friends with them!
I hate that I’ve let myself steer so far from where I belong, now I feel so lost and unsuccessful, with no true friends. I am nowhere near pleased with my GPA or class rank, and I hate that it’s due to me getting distracted and wanting to fit in, that I’ve gotten those grades. I wish I was in sports, & many clubs, & helping the community, & I wish I would have stuck with the smart, great friends I had before, as well as found more. Now we’re so apart, they’ve all found their niche while I’m the lost black sheep, and no one can even tell because of how confident and funny I act in classes, but really I’m so lonely all the time. I don’t know what to do, and I feel like it’s too late to make a big change.