I’ve sort of come to the idea that I just can’t find my own little niche yet. I’m an Korean adoptee, and I struggle between fitting in with my family, and fitting in with my ethnicity, if you know what I mean. Please don’t give me any “adoptee” facts or things like that, because I don’t really want to know about it. I just need some words of advice please.
My high school has its cliques, and the “asians” are probably one of the most cliquey. I hung out with them last year, but because I didn’t grow up the same way, I felt out of place even though they were all really nice. This year I hang out with my friends that I have all my life, and I made a new best friend (I have two now), but I still feel like I’m missing out on things. I have friends, not as many as I’d like though. It seems like all the people I’m with this year are old news, and I’ve been good friends with them in the past, but now it’s just like.. I’m there, and they’re there, but we don’t connect anymore. I feel like I’m having a really difficult time figuring out who my friends are.
I’m not unpopular, I don’t have any enemies and I’m nice to people.. but some days I feel really lonely. I’d never do anything dangerous with those feelings, but somedays I just feel low and cry. Have you ever reached a point in your life where you have just a few really good friends/best friends, and the rest are acquaintances? Any words of advice?