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So here goes, my mess be patient please! 🙂
19 going on 20 my boyfriend of over a year wants to get married next year, The issue is we live 4 hours apart. I am away at school for nursing and he is an apprentice for a mechanic. We have known eachother since we where 15 our friends, family, and pastors are all behind us in getting married. Things just aren’t working though. I go home every 2 weeks for the weekend to see him and friends and family, but then I have to drive back to school on Sunday afternoon which is 4 hours away from his house (3 from our hometown) He really wants me to come back to town and go to our towns local college for their nursing program, but the school they are affiliated with is not a well known or a recognizable school. Option 2. The same school as the one in my town is located 1.5 hours away from my home town and affiliated with a recongizable school however this kinda impedes on his marriage idea because he wants to get married once I start my “summer break” in may or the first weekish of june. It;s really hard for him to see me and for us to cordinate everything Option 3. My best friends is going to the most recognized school in my province and I could go with her and room with her ( better than living in dorms) but still 3/4 hours away. Option 4. If I go to the school with my bff, then I can transfer the next semester to where my boyfriend will be doing trade school and we could be together (married some how because he wants to be married this spring remember) he would just have to be willing to move up towards my area for work.
See this is a mess, I would really appreciate some opinions that might work from adults. Mature adults I don’t want comments from people being tool’s about the situation.

i feel like crying during movies. any movie. any movie because there’s always a couple, or someone who finds love. but movie’s aren’t the main problem, i guess.
i cry because i’m lonely.
i don’t care if i’m fifteen and i have ‘my entire life’ to find someone, i’m not even looking for a soul-mate. i’m looking for someone to make me happy. even if it’s just for a little while. even if i have to deal with feelings afterwards.
some will say, ‘get a hobby’. i guess once upon a time i had a niche. i was an artist, and i was damn good too. but i fell out of creativity, and every time i try to pick it up again it never sticks. now.. now i sit in my room watching the shopping network and cartoons, occupying my time. i feel like such a loser because i’m just wasting my time. i hate summer break, because at least school kept me busy.
i don’t even have a best friend. they don’t need me, my friends aren’t exactly pivotal to my life either. i could live without my casual friends. i just.. all i want is to be happy.