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I’ve never met anyone that has interests that are similar to mine and it makes it extremely hard to get along with anyone. The only thing I can do with people anymore is smoke weed because everyone loves weed at my school. Most people at my school call me weird and things like that, but for some reason, adults (except teachers because I don’t talk to teachers) love my personality and tell my mom that she raised a wonderful son. Kids are so cruel to me and I don’t know why.
I had to be in a special task management class my freshmen year because I failed most of my classes in eighth grade due to not trying. All the kids and the teachers (there were two of them for some reason) would make fun of my behavior for some reason and some kids would even try to start fights with me even though most people know that I have an ungodly fear of any contact with people. My older sister wouldn’t even stand up for me.
I have friends, but I don’t have a group of friends because my small number of friends all come from different niches at my high school. I usually end up at home after school and on the weekends. During lunch time at my school, I just roam the halls till lunch is over because I have nobody to sit with. I feel very unattached from reality. I don’t think that I’m like most people. I’m at the point where I can’t comprehend how people can go on fine day to day while I’m left questioning my existence. Everyday, I feel like I’m getting worse and moving farther away from my friends. I feel very alone in the word. Could there be a reason why I am this way?

I’ve never met anyone that has interests that are similar to mine and it makes it extremely hard to get along with anyone. The only thing I can do with people anymore is smoke weed because everyone loves weed at my school. Most people at my school call me weird and things like that, but for some reason, adults (except teachers because I don’t talk to teachers) love my personality and tell my mom that she raised a wonderful son. Kids are so cruel to me and I don’t know why.
I had to be in a special task management class my freshmen year because I failed most of my classes in eighth grade due to not trying. All the kids and the teachers (there were two of them for some reason) would make fun of my behavior for some reason and some kids would even try to start fights with me even though most people know that I have an ungodly fear of any contact with people. My older sister wouldn’t even stand up for me.
I have friends, but I don’t have a group of friends because my small number of friends all come from different niches at my high school. I usually end up at home after school and on the weekends. During lunch time at my school, I just roam the halls till lunch is over because I have nobody to sit with. I feel very unattached from reality. I don’t think that I’m like most people. I’m at the point where I can’t comprehend how people can go on fine day to day while I’m left questioning my existence. Everyday, I feel like I’m getting worse and moving farther away from my friends. I feel very alone in the word. Could there be a reason why I am this way?

I’ve never met anyone that has interests that are similar to mine and it makes it extremely hard to get along with anyone. The only thing I can do with people anymore is smoke weed because everyone loves weed at my school. Most people at my school call me weird and things like that, but for some reason, adults (except teachers because I don’t talk to teachers) love my personality and tell my mom that she raised a wonderful son. Kids are so cruel to me and I don’t know why.
I had to be in a special task management class my freshmen year because I failed most of my classes in eighth grade due to not trying. All the kids and the teachers (there were two of them for some reason) would make fun of my behavior for some reason and some kids would even try to start fights with me even though most people know that I have an ungodly fear of any contact with people. My older sister wouldn’t even stand up for me.
I have friends, but I don’t have a group of friends because my small number of friends all come from different niches at my high school. I usually end up at home after school and on the weekends. During lunch time at my school, I just roam the halls till lunch is over because I have nobody to sit with. I feel very unattached from reality. I don’t think that I’m like most people. I’m at the point where I can’t comprehend how people can go on fine day to day while I’m left questioning my existence. Everyday, I feel like I’m getting worse and moving farther away from my friends. I feel very alone in the word. Could there be a reason why I am this way?

Sorry if you’ve seen this post question somewhere, just need more advice.
Please read the whole thing, this isn’t a life-rambling question.
I don’t really care what happens to other people unless it rebounds on me and affects me, other than that I feel no empathy for the person unless it is something BIG. I hardly care about my friends, even my close friends but I still love them and will look out of them but I just don’t feel emotionally connected to them. I don’t care what happens to people only if I’m not affiliated or involved in it. I sometimes just feel very empty emotionally but feel like I am jinxing myself if I do not show my condolences (not specifically death but a serious event) and end up praying for them and being sympathetic, when deep inside.. I’m not sure if I do.
I always put myself in front before anyone else but if I feel low confident in a certain area of participation I would let everyone else go in front of me. I’m very paranoid and have a hatred towards things, not sure why though. If I ever think that something will happen, before any question pops up, I always ask myself “how will this affect me” and how I would respond to it.. I can’t really blame myself, I reckon it is because of untreated delusions.
Funny part is, if it does affect me – I instantly turn into an angel and try my hardest to resolve and to non-nonchalantly calm the situation. Best part is, it helps them but it helps me too, more than them to be personal about it.
The other funny part is, if I think the person is a threat to me or feel like they are no good to me, I block them out of my life and try to exclude them like I’ve never wanted to know them, I’ve actually done that a few times and it has worked.
I’m not that self-centered, I donate because I want to help, not because I get something out of it.. I try my best to help but if it begins to be a threat to me, I begin to panic and try to find ways that will benefit ME.
Example:
2 of my friends were having a very viscous verbal and was soon-to-be physical fight, the grudge my friend held against my other friend (who appeared calmer) went on for days and my friend who help the grudge would whine to me for hours at a time about him and how much he hates him.. I acted upon it and made them say sorry to each other, now they are friends.. I didn’t do it for them to be friends, I did it for myself so my friend who held the grudge would stop bitching.
Example 2:
One of my friends did weed, I excluded him and neglected him from my life for a few months, I them approached him and threatened him that if he touches weed again – our friendship is finished and completely over. I didn’t come to that threat because of ONLY the weed, I did it also because he was a complete dick at the time and didn’t want to associate with someone who would get high every week and offer me that stuff. I couldn’t care less if he did weed, but when he offered me this one time, I felt like I was being invaded.
Example 3: In process:
This girl I’ve met recently went through a breakup, I gave her the best advice and she loves me too much and thinks I’m charming, amazing, perfect and is in love with me and wants to start a relationship with me.. I don’t have any love towards her, and if any feelings for her.. It would’ve only lasted for a few hours.. She is now being too clingy that I’m hoping she would get bored of me and understand that I want to remain friends. We then got into a fight… we made up and compromised and she admitted that she loves me and doesn’t deserve me.. I couldn’t feel anything towards it, not even a connection.
I lie to satisfy other people and not to hurt them or make me look bad, let’s just say that I’m a very talented and skilled liar but I’m not a pathological one, I donate to charity and to help the people who are suffering in other countries in the world but I don’t feel empathy for them, I just don’t get that. I really can’t tell anyone in my real life this or else they’ll feel like they are a burden and possibly exclude me for thinking I don’t care about them, which is true but I must keep that behind the mask.
I don’t love many people, I don’t cry over videos or photos, I have these weird thoughts that are very subtle and are really strange. I just don’t feel like a human, I don’t really like a lot of humans. feel like I can read people’s expressions, feelings and action like a book, I can look at a person and judge their personality, appearance, insecurities and successions, though it could misjudgement.
Today, me and my friends walked past this road and we saw a cat that was dead on the road, they freaked out and were sad. They had no reason to be sad to be honest, it is a cat who is dead, you don’t know anything about it but it is dead.
I love my family, even though I do

My school is 95% hispanic (Mexican to be specific) and I’m supposedly Mexican too but I’m light skinned, slanty-eye’d and have black hair so everyone thinks I’m Asian. I don’t celebrate Mexican culture at all, the Mexicans at my school are gang affiliated. They think I’m “lame” for not smoking weed or drinking at 13. When my family/friends talk in Spanish I never understand them. Instead of bumping Mexican music I bump Korean Pop music (The only time I ever listen to Mexican music is to make my family happy.) And on top of that I get called zipperhead by the other students. (there are no Asians at all in this school, there was 1 Asian staff member before but he left) I also want to grow my hair out (which will cause more jokes with the fact that I wear glasses too). What do I do to stop being an outcast or the rest of freshman year. (I’m going to a school more closer to my city next year.)

I don’t have any real friends… I’ve switched schools numerous times cause of bullying and moving and financial issues my family had… Im a freshman in highschool but im currently going to a charter school specifically designed for people with behavioral issues, and/or depression/anxiety/mental health issues/disabilities. Most of the kids there are there for behavioral issues, which I’m there for depression/anxiety.. I’mkinda the outcast cause i dont act out like most of them do and i dont do weed or drink or any of that **** so aparently that makes me a loser.
I have a few friendly accuaintances i guess you could say, outside of school from past schools, but none that i could really call friends.. i have no social life whatsoever, party due to social anxiety and partly due to the fact i lost all of my middle school years, switching schools and homescooling, while other kids were making friends and finding their niche, and i was being a hermit all depressed hiding in my room.
I have no money to sign up for things at the rec center, my school has absolutely no activities to take part in, and theres no where to hang out around my house. I dont have my drivers license yet so i cant drive anywhere and my family is un-willing to do ANYTHING for me.
I feel like im stuck. all ive been able to do is make a few online friends, but that doesnt help much. it just keeps me inside on a computer more.
What do I do? I’m such a freaking loner.