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Ohhkaii so this is my first question ^^
And its quite confusing .
Its just I dont know who I am . I feel so abandonned . As if no one wants me in their life . Everybodys forcing me to do things I dont like . My favorite / talent is art & music (piano or vocals) but my parents dont appreciate it . They want me to be good at the academics , something I really really try to do good at , but its just … I dont know how to explain … not something my HEART wants .
If I told my parents I want to be a model , theyd be screaming at me and ground me for years and not talk to me .
And my school life . My friends , for example . I never feel like fitting in . Dont get me wrong . I have a lot of friends . But not one best friend that I can actually trust and share my feeling with . And guys . I attract the wrong type of guys . Jocks that only want a one night stand or seeing if I can fck them hard . I want a nice boy that I can relate to . Likes my type of music (rock , screamo , bands) & knows how I feel .
Whats wrong with me ? Have I just not discovered my niche in this world yet ?
Also a little more information : I have a councellor / therapist .
And next month Im going to check if I have any sort of depression or short attention span (what was it called again ? A_ _ )
And my life is exactly the same as the song “Welcome to My Life” by Simple Plan .
But help me please ? [:
Thank you ! <3
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Thanks again 😀